I'm
about to die for you, I'm getting worse every minute. You provoke a burning
rage that consumes me. It takes my life away...
What
am I supposed to do, with someone that makes me feel like that? Is it possible
to love in this situation? It seems I am blindfolded, that white misty fog that
prevents me to see what's really happening. But yet, that dangerous and
beautiful mist, takes me away to a forest, the forest, of love.
Is
this a lie? If it is, this is my beautiful lie, you're my beautiful lie. I
cannot see through these obstacles. I can't find my way out of this forest, of
this labyrinth. A million ways to take but none are the right path to choose.
I
lie there hopeless, waiting for you to give me a sign on how to get out of
here. In front of a tree, that seems to be giving life to this forest. It feels
like days have passed and I'm still lying there, waiting. At last I hear
something in this awful silence, it was the sound of multiple voices leading to
yours.
Happiness
pulsed through my heart and hope through my veins. But yet again, this was
another obstacle. How was I going to be able to tell what you were saying, when
you were lost as well between those voices?
I
got up, confused, as if your voice told me to. Walking, until I reached a gap,
a huge hole in the ground, that separated my world from yours. At the far end
of horizon I saw a light, this time I heard your voice, your voice only, it
said: "That light that you see is the exit, but the end of it all". I
was certain that I needed to follow your request. But how I was going to reach
the other side?
I
knew this was the only chance to reunite with you. As I stood, motionless, I
thought: "What if this is yet another obstacle? Why if you love me, you
put me through all of this?
The only path I had was the horizon itself.
I started walking the never-ending road, with all of my senses blocked. I
couldn't see, there was nothing near to touch but the ground itself, I could
not taste or smell. I relied in only one thing, your voice.
A
long journey lied ahead of me, I did not give up, and I kept going. After a
while, it felt like I walked a thousand miles, with nothing on my head until sudden
flashes came on to me and I realized they were memories. This memories
projected on my mind, in a brief second that seemed to last a lot. It was me,
escorting you to my car, holding hands, but that vision changed from that
beautiful stage to a bloodier one where you and I were on the floor, and
suffering. What was this? Were you trying to give me another sign?
I
wasn’t sure if you were trying to confuse me or help me. You gave me so many
hints on how I could get out of there, but it was impossible for me. Then, I
started to realize that this alternate place had to mean something, does it?
More of the bloody scene came on to me, this time clearer than ever. I remember
now. We had a car accident a few days ago and somehow I was wandering in my
sleep. I figured out that I was between the lines of life and death in that
moment. The sound of my heart brought me to life again, I slowly opened my
eyes, squinting, I saw you my beloved. That was the nicest thing that could
ever happen to me, you smiled, a sudden beep came out of the machines, and I
knew what was happening so I held your hand and a black curtain covered my
eyes. As I said, it took my life away, far away from what I loved the most,
you…